Post by Arias on May 16, 2016 23:16:57 GMT
Arias floated along as a puffball in hell, every day, second, millisecond even that went by a painstaking reminder of what she'd lost. She had lost her mate, her kids, even her own life which she gave trying to protect them only to fail. She just kept failing. The few things she loved and cared about were gone to her, lost to the wind. Thinking about her unborn twins that had died in the womb brought pain to the ex-mother. All she wanted was to fit in, but it was not meant to be. Where did she go wrong..?
It had to be on the day her parents died. A painful memory still in her head, she couldn't let go of their deaths along with her own. She only seemed to bring death and harm to everything around her, no matter what she tried to do. Arias felt nothing but pain when nobody was around, her anger melting away as she was left alone with her memories. Grief radiated from her as she wished she could cry, she felt like crying but was unable to as she didn't have a body.
Grief was never really something Arias could deal with, as she tried to run away from emotions like this as she didn't really know how to deal with them. All she wanted was someone to love her. She'd had that in Daika, but look what she did and where she ended up. Dead, with the twins of her lover killed along with her. Their souls were probably in heaven, somewhere where they wouldn't suffer any more than what Arias had caused them. Her daughter Fuku, her poor daughter that had to witness the death of her mother and her siblings. Her other daughter Presto, who had changed so much from absorbing that one assassin. Thoughts roared in her head, creating a jumble of confusion to the point Arias could only do one thing.
She shouted to the sky, the supposed sky of Hell. Why did she have to be so stupid, why did she have to constantly lose everything she cared about? I am a fool. I don't deserve to have anything. I'm nothing but a monster that kills or dooms to die whatever she touches, someone who is nothing but a cold-blooded killer. What happened to me, what have I become.. I can't understand why I don't fit in, why am I so different? Why can't I just be SANE?!
Arias continued to float along after having stopped to think. Shoving away the bad memories, she went to wander around the land of Hell once more, to seek a revenge for her kids. Brooding on the topic of revenge, the telltale aura of fury and rage radiated from her once more, covering the previous aura of grief, sorrow, and pain..
It had to be on the day her parents died. A painful memory still in her head, she couldn't let go of their deaths along with her own. She only seemed to bring death and harm to everything around her, no matter what she tried to do. Arias felt nothing but pain when nobody was around, her anger melting away as she was left alone with her memories. Grief radiated from her as she wished she could cry, she felt like crying but was unable to as she didn't have a body.
Grief was never really something Arias could deal with, as she tried to run away from emotions like this as she didn't really know how to deal with them. All she wanted was someone to love her. She'd had that in Daika, but look what she did and where she ended up. Dead, with the twins of her lover killed along with her. Their souls were probably in heaven, somewhere where they wouldn't suffer any more than what Arias had caused them. Her daughter Fuku, her poor daughter that had to witness the death of her mother and her siblings. Her other daughter Presto, who had changed so much from absorbing that one assassin. Thoughts roared in her head, creating a jumble of confusion to the point Arias could only do one thing.
She shouted to the sky, the supposed sky of Hell. Why did she have to be so stupid, why did she have to constantly lose everything she cared about? I am a fool. I don't deserve to have anything. I'm nothing but a monster that kills or dooms to die whatever she touches, someone who is nothing but a cold-blooded killer. What happened to me, what have I become.. I can't understand why I don't fit in, why am I so different? Why can't I just be SANE?!
Arias continued to float along after having stopped to think. Shoving away the bad memories, she went to wander around the land of Hell once more, to seek a revenge for her kids. Brooding on the topic of revenge, the telltale aura of fury and rage radiated from her once more, covering the previous aura of grief, sorrow, and pain..