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Post by Levlidian on May 2, 2017 21:08:29 GMT
The way it had all been described to him truly irritated the young Saiyan, she doubted everything, every ample piece of aid he'd offered her and as they erected her home; silence was all she received. It wasn't that he didn't want to speak, lord knows everyone had said he did that far too much, it was that words had failed time and again; each time he'd elaborated wanting to help she'd doubted him and not that he blamed her, in the wake of the calamity that was his and her bond he'd blamed not an ounce of it. Even now she stood harbouring these emotions more with words than he ever did and even now he sneered for but a moment to how little she'd come to see. "I wanted to spare you what i went through" he mumbled as he tied off her third wall leaving the front to be completed. The entire process had taken them hours, as the beast had reached for the hammer she'd propped the walls and the supports to which he'd bound the logs they owned. It had been indeed those hours, sat about the roof top, leaning his palms into the back wall as he'd awaited the woman to apply nails and lashings to erect a sturdy edifice. She was annoying him, was this what he'd been like, moping about his family and his home all those months alone in the wilderness? Of course it was, why would he think he'd have acted any differently as it was more than a shock to him, even as Ca'Drual had smiled at him as his own younger brother put an end to the secret misery. Eight times he'd stopped and peered at her, a looming obligation to nag her adhering to what ever thought he could perceive and every time he'd not seen the point.
Even in the times he'd been alone, Lev' had always sought solace, sought some form of reprieve but he'd never really understood from what he was running. Takeshii had a point, he'd enforced this all on her, he'd just assumed she was like him and looking for friends thus never had the beast actually -asked-. This was getting tiresome, so hard headed was he that personal feelings often evaded his mind, Duriam, Keshii, both of them had gone a long with what he had thought was right. Who was he to decide that, again that darkness welled in his chest, a self loathing lack of confidence in his own choices that delivered the free spirited fool into the realms of rage once again. Nothing but doubt came out of being here, nothing but unhappiness, more than anyone he understood but this didn't cease his frustration- Keshii had barely lain her eyes on how terrible it was to be separated from her family. Even for a moment, the Super Saiyan caught himself wondering if he shouldn't have just let her kill him. The difference between both Saiyan's lay with the delusion he carried- that Saiyan's were internally good creatures. Who was he kidding even now he sought war, even now he wanted to fight and get stronger but did it matter for the reasoning if it was only a fools errand in the end.
Immoderate temper crossed with insufferable reminder, Lev' suddenly dropped his hammer and fixed a glare on the female, one final time came and he opened his maw to speak only to stop and catch his mind. "You have a prospect of going home at least,,". He turned on his heel and began to wander away; taking up his Gi in the wake of it he'd offer a short glance to the Saiyaness; "I'll stop taking the lead,". Thus the Saiyan drew into the sky, "We need more wood," he scowled and above the trees he'd soar. Waves upon waves of beautiful green swam beneath him, locating half decent trees proved to be easy enough but a distance was needed from Keshii. Never had he known so much pain to be drawn back from the depths of his flames and resurrected like some twisted joke. he hated it, hated what it did to everything he'd worked for but them's the breaks he'd suppose. Fighting was all that 'kept him going, defeating those he blamed for if his Father hadn't joined the SSE perhaps he'd never have become the brute his son knew. Upon landing, this was when he realised he'd left the Axe at home. "Fuck," he spat and delivered a strike to the nearest foliage shattering it's trunk and felling the brutish thing.
"Hm," he mused and his lips curled, again and again he struck the lumber and reduced it to what he desired, Iron flesh carved deep into the system of identifiable crevices that were his adhered requirements. Long, slim binds of wood lay before him in the afternoon sun, debating whether he should return at all- it was noted he'd have to. Abandoning her again was a mistake and one he'd not follow through on again but that wasn't to say, she didn't need time. Disgusted with himself and slumping before one such pile of wood- he'd lean unto it and hang his head to peer at the green blades beneath him. Depression, hello my old friend, came the thoughts that ransacked his brain, Durian would know what to say, what to do but what was he in comparison to that? Ha! he'd begun again, likening himself to people who'd seen terror he could only dream of and his actions had never been the wisest. Perhaps his long time friend was right, he wasn't strong enough, not even close, the once suicide mission turned possibility was a joke; he was a joke. The Saiyan fighting not to be a Saiyan was nothing more than a laughing stock for he was failing miserably and hadn't noticed. Of course, logically he knew none of this could ever come to pass but then again- why had he stricken himself so hard for it?
"Damnit," he cursed quietly and allowed his emotions to rise, "Damnit-," he said a little louder as he realised he'd not come very far at all. if all it took was one close friend to lay out the truths of himself and his actions to deteriorate him so very far. What was wrong with him? had all that crap not worked itself through him already? There it was, his temper rearing like and angry Wolf and the debris about him began to encircle and collide. Durian had face her fears and won, he'd faced only part of them- but the nauseous amounts of guilt he carried still gnawed, still chewed at him and now he could barely acknowledged a thought of seeing his Wife when his mind was deteriorating like this. He was that little Saiyan once again, that idiot hot-head who'd come to Earth and been heartily defeated and thrashed upon first entry. "Damnit!" he cursed louder and his energy exploded as he'd roar one final time clearing all trees within a circular motion of his form; "DAMNIT!" thus the floor concaved spitting dirt and rock into the air at the expulsion of his electromagnetic field, created in his place was a large crater with him at the center and fallen foliage all about him. "I haven't changed at all-," he whined and simply rested his forehead to his hands, "Damnit," he whispered.
How was it that -not- being able to go home still hurt so very much, there was nothing for him there and everything for him here, but still, perhaps it was not the actual return that plagued him; indeed it seemed that he'd be tricked all those years ago. He'd figured it out fairly early on, how a boy so young managed to defeat so many adults- they'd allowed him to and yet they didn't account for his blood lust. Where as Takeshii was able to fend those emotions, bury them, levlidian had never had that power. Each time he'd felt angry or upset he'd lashed out and now was no different. "Man-Child," he whispered that nickname with bitter irony, he truly was, speeding between emotions and evading the truths of it all; the only reason he'd fought so hard to be nicer was because Lily showed him how one could feel granting others your aid. using that as fuel to excuse he'd recited and practised his denial until he mad eit real- just not he realised how false he must truly look reverting as he had. His hands balled into meaty fists as his head merely rested to his forearms at hat hugged his knees- he was being a child. Not only this he was acting like a spoiled brat- he had no right to feel hurt over his father's plan for he had been the fool who'd stumbled into it. He was the fool believing he could defeat the Empire on his own; he was the fool to think he'd ever amount to more than a wayward Saiyan with an anger management problem; he needed to find a purpose, a goal, he needed to get away from this self pity.
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Post by Takeshii on May 3, 2017 3:52:56 GMT
Takeshii had triggered something in Levlidian, and she felt a sudden pang of guilt wash over her. However, there was also a part of her that was glad to see him hurt. She was glad to see him actually feel how she felt. Her nostrils would flare, and she turned her gaze away from him when he spoke about not wanting her to go through what he had gone through. She shook her head then, moving to step forward towards the base of the house...the base that was actually starting to look like a real cabin now. Her gaze would drift over it for several moments as she took the time to just breathe and try to catch her emotions before she let them get the better of her once again. She was not going to let that happen...not again.
"That was my decision to make Lev...not yours."
The Saiyan heard him mention that they needed more wood, and she would simply nod her head, not really paying attention when he took off through the air and departed the area she had picked for her home. She waited several moments before she lifted that gaze, looking skywards, and seeing that he was gone. Her eyes would drift closed, that shuddering breath coming from her as she leaned her back against the wall and slid down it, her body moving in that dejected way it had the day she had awoken to find him gone. The drift of eyes closing, blocking out the light, and allowing herself to drift back within her mind to that day...the day when her entire world as she had known it would change.
Takeshii had awoken that morning, knowing that the day was supposed to be a good one. They had made plans to go on an adventure and do a little exploring a bit further from home than they had before. She had awoken, and went to get dressed, a smile upon her tanned features as her tail swayed delicately behind her. A stop at the mirror had seen the young Saiyan running a brush through her long, dark hair and smoothing out her Gi over her form. Nodding, she moved out of her room and went downstairs to the kitchen, stopping once she entered and saw her mother and father sitting there with a look of dread upon their features. She stopped dead in her tracks as fear suddenly washed over her, and she had had no idea why. She just KNEW something was wrong, and could only sit and wait for the affirmative answer to that unspoken question. It was her father that would speak first, the normally mild-mannered warrior's tone firm as he motioned to the chair across from him.
"Takeshii, sit down. We have something we need to discuss with you."
Kesh had moved forward, her feet feeling like lead weights as she drug them across the floor and made her way to sit in that chair. Her body lowered slowly until her backside made an impact with the cushion and she half curled in on herself, that dark chocolate gaze looking expectantly between her parents. She remained silent, almost afraid to speak...afraid that whatever it was she would say, would not come out the way she wanted it to in that moment. Moments passed, and it seemed like HOURS, even though it was only a few moments before her father's gaze would lift to look upon her once again. His lips had parted as he prepared himself to speak, only for them to snap closed once again as he shook his head. Her mother had reached over to place her slender fingers upon her father's arm then, that reassuring gesture made to him. His gaze would turn to look to his Saiyan Goddess, and that nod would be given to her before he looked back towards Takeshii. When he finally began to speak, his words were heavily weighted.
"Takeshii. Something horrible has happened. Levlidian...he is gone. He...he has destroyed his family and left. We are not certain exactly where he has gone, but the energy signature we were able to pick up, shows his pod heading in the direction of Earth. We THINK that is where he is headed, but we can not be certain. Takeshii...it is bad...really bad. Not only has he destroyed his family, but any chance we had of uniting our families and bloodlines have been destroyed as well."
The young Siayan had sat there with a look of absolute horror on her features. She was shaking her head, denial clearly written upon her features. It could not be possible. This was all just a nightmare, a big joke and she was the butt of it, right? She stood up from her chair, causing it to slide across the floor and slam against the wall in her haste. Fingers curled into fists as she looked between them once again. THIS WAS A LIE! None of this could be true, Levlidian would not do that to her...he would never do that to her. She turned on her heels then, running out of the house and making her way across the city and out into the woods. They were supposed to meet up that morning at a cave deep in those woods. They were going to regroup and head out from there on their little expedition. It was there that she would run, her feet carrying her swiftly across the ground. As she neared that cave, she would pause, her breath coming in heated pants as she stepped forward to peer inside.
"Levlidian? Lev...I know you're in there. Come on out."
Just a dream...it was all just a dream. She kept repeating that in her head, even as she stepped forward with the intention of checking to see if he was sitting within that cave as he had been so many times before. Darkness swallowed her whole, and the only thing darker was the deathly silence that filled the cave as well. Her gaze would shift around, and she searched...oh so desperately she had searched for him, only to realize that HE WAS NOT THERE! Her back had landed against the wall, and just as she did now, she had slid downward along it until her backside hit the stone beneath her...and she wept. Her best friend...was gone. Her heart had sunk so deeply that it sent her into the deepest, darkest of depressions, a depression that she would not be able to pull herself out of, at least not on her own. For weeks she walked around like a zombie, finding no joy in sparring, or even spending time with her family. She rarely slept, barely ate, and grew weaker with every passing moment.
Takeshii felt like she was stuck in that place all over again. Only now she was on Earth, and now the only person she had that she would possibly be able to depend on, was the one person that had hurt ber before. She sat there with her palms resting against her forehead and she would take deep, gasping breaths. She had to calm herself, she could not let the past dictate the things that she was doing now...could she? The Saiyan would push herself up and away from that wall, before she would step outwards towards that pond once again. A dip of palms into the crystal clear water, and she brought it up to her face, drinking from it and also using it to wash away the sorrow from her features. She took a deep breath then, and would soon take to the sky, the young Saiyan darting off as quickly as she could, trying to find the one man that was her connection to it all.
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Post by Levlidian on May 3, 2017 12:07:36 GMT
Levlidian remained where he'd been the entirety of his excursion, amply lit and now devoid of life, he rested beside the logs in which he'd prepared and merely peered at the dirt. Had he been so blind that he hadn't seen what was happening to him? For so long he'd been comfortable and living the quaint little life he'd not noticed how far back down his path he'd tumbled. Wisdom had been right there, a narrow ample corridor for him to traverse and he'd mindlessly thwacked his head and rolled clear of it's door, now that door had relocated and he was lost all over again. For so long he'd sought a reason, a notion to fight and the one he'd crossed settled none of that vast rage that swelled in his chest, Saiyan blood was still Saiyan blood and fighting couldn't be the only answer. For so long he'd adversed and soared between battles, even the moments with Tulip and Hinawa had fallen to the breath of his beloved and he knew he'd made a wrong turn. Durian was an answer to his problems of self confidence and derived from the blackest of thoughts- perfection incarnate as she was it couldn't end his suffering to the shadows that bound him like chains.
No single person could cure him of those ills, only he himself and he needed to find something to work towards, felling the Solar Empire was selfish, it was suicide, Lev' wasn't even sure if he amounted to half the power required for such a task; how could he have become so single minded in the wake of so much learning. The greatest flaw he faced was indeed his temper, his naivety and the wanton lust for combat even with his lovers spite eluding him- he was sure it wouldn't be long till it returned if he continued to act like such a whining little bitch. If not that perhaps it would once she knew what he'd covered over for his best friend, the swelling guilt was enough to drive even the sanest man to the depths of that mind like abyss and drown him. This was never going to be the end of it, that happy ending, his want of a family and to replace what was stolen of him, Vegeta was never in the cards neither was Keshii but now? An exasperated sigh enticed the air and up tilted the Saiyan's head to the dimly lit sky the twilight's had claimed, vented and elegant purples combined with the aspects of fire and he soon closed both eyes despite one operating as it should whilst the other lay glassy.
"Get it together," he murmured and strained against the disaster that was the depressive status he'd followed for so long, creeping vipers assaulted him, winds serpentine in nature and adventurous as any swept through his mane and Gi. Upon replacement, the Gi itself served well as the warmer of his lean, muscular figure, carved to establish perfect biological sustenance to any with a mind for the sciences. Each time he'd break, the bloom of his chest drew the depiction to the kanji for Fox taught and it fell as equally. Calm came, it opened it's maw and encircled him traversing the nights of his sadness and squandered the energy of something far healthier; thus the Saiyan came to rest in the idea that he could still gain ample control of his emotions. How often was he going to allow these animals rampant in his mind, tearing, gnawing at the simplest utterance of his failures. Now was not the time to dwell and the youth knew this, they had to go to Namek, with or without his Saiyaness, they were going to go and discover the Universe.
Still the Guilt would fester and he'd roll his neck in the wake of it's residual tension, muscles and sinew drew erect and taught courting a grunt of their master, how he hated the effects of such. With a quick flex of his limbs, rolling the shoulder in a vast motion followed by it's brother, Levlidian soon turned on heel to locate the variables of his wares. Wood piled high, pyramidal selections to further the consistency of logical action. He was a man with a mind, a mind for science and technology- active engineering required such and he'd sickened himself knowing he'd allowed that to be squandered beneath sadness. "Durian knows me better than i thought," he'd muse and allow the quirk of a smile bloom about his thin lips. Bloody women, endeavoured so hard to be correct on all fronts they'd studied him to the ground and back up, now there was no sneaking anything past even if he was a little slow to catch on to the ideas himself.
Today was the mark, the mark he'd take and seek that perfection of soul and mind once again, he needed to find a balance between his rage, his amusement and his sadness else this would simply repeat over and over again until he subjected himself to the confines of Death. Such a thing he simply couldn't afford if he'd planned to train two of the women who meant most to him, he loved them, in different ways and for different reasons; but he loved the both of them and he had yet to explore that. Where as Durian had won him through shear acceptance and patience- a lover by no means falsified nor underappreciated for what she'd done for him- Takeshii he had yet to explore at all nor acknowledge. They were best friends, he knew now more than ever she rode a different horse to the soul he'd chosen as a partner. The Saiyaness was his pride incarnate, the last resemblance of a home he missed- until now it was his Father who'd poisoned these thoughts and plagued his mind with talk of insubordination but Keshii was his family now. She was that one idol he'd seek to polish rather than break and draw her from her own darkness just as he'd done Hinawa and Durian; he could do right by his family unlike how he had before.
That smirk soon became an ample smile, deliverance of such detonated the positive within him and Lev' could only gaze unto the logs with a silent determination. She needed time, she needed a home and she needed a support. What she didn't need was an overbearing best friend forcing her to train and evolve with him- like Durian she needed time to develop on her own. With a stout nod and an understanding adjustment of his jaw, Lev' knew what was to be done and slowly he'd reach for the prepared logs and ample sock to begin strapping parts to his frame and others that remained in his grasp. It was about time he'd returned to her, the tantrum had ended and he knew now what he'd endeavoured upon was entirely what she'd admitted; he had been wrong to act as such an Alpha unto the creature he desired to save, thus the question would be proclaimed at his earliest opportunity and understanding should follow it's response. However, upon gaze to the sky, that tell tale mane soon saw his singular eye of obsidian widen in realisation- Takeshii had come for him, but why?
"You got anyone at home waiting Saiyan?" grunted the Arcorsian, Lev' swilled at the bar as he had ever done, dressed in a ragged black Gi and boasting none of the kindness he had before. "Nah<" he answered though he knew it a lie. However should they learn of his exile, the beast knew he'd be wanted through half of the Arcorsian Empire for more than being a Saiyan- mercenaries shared no allegiance but they sure loved their drama. "Sucks," spat the less than acquainted reptilian and he'd seek endorse himself a drink. "Well there's one- likely she'll hate me for leaving. Soldiers work y'know?" Levlidian couldn't recall another time he'd spoken to anyone of Takeshii, perhaps it was the ample alcohol polluting him at the time, perhaps it was dumb luck- or perhaps it was simply due to the fact he'd spied a Mercenary that looked just like her. Slowly he'd rise and stumble towards the male who'd shared words, truthfully it had been Levlidian who'd called to him, even as he stumbled and clapped his hand about the creature's shoulder pad- there came a sudden scuffle and Levlidian snapped the mans neck right there and extended a palm to the owner. "Your welcome," he spat and dumped the note of assassination about the bar before striding free of the establishment, turning and levelling it with but a sweep of his own fist. Times were simpler when you did what you wanted.
Seeking was one aspect of her that had never existed before, usually it was the younger man who sought the bastion of a woman she depicted and confusion soon came in sibling to the wonder. "Kesh!" he roared and began to writhe his arms left and right, he knew she'd not the ability to sense as clearly as he, not yet but in the wake of all he had every intention of changing such a position for her. However much he hated to admit it, Keshii had always had ten times the skill he'd ever had and with some coercion perhaps she'd exceed him, or so he'd hoped but in the wake of the falling evening- he'd simply have to settle with the idea that perhaps it was best to enjoy her company more than seek to change her future. After all, Lev' had come here in a similar position and had come to think as he did without much more than a nudge here or there, perhaps his friend could succeed in very much the same way.
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Post by Takeshii on May 6, 2017 16:52:56 GMT
Takeshii had spotted Levlidian, even before he started waving his hands around like a madman. She was drawn like a moth to an every flickering flame, and she could do nothing about it. She slowly descended from the sky, the air around her whirling in a tiny tornado-like motion, that would send her long, dark hair billowing around her shoulders. Unlike Levlidian, when she came in, you sensed her more than felt her, and maybe that was because she was so subtle about her motion. The Saiyan's feet came to a landing, and she would step forward to where Levlidian was standing. Her gaze watched him, the way his solidly muscled form moved in the moonlight. Yes, it had grown dark now, but she was alright with the dark. It helped to hide the emotion she so desperately wanted to keep hidden from him. However, she knew that it was time to talk, time for him to understand a few things...and perhaps time for her to come to terms with what she was feeling right now...she hoped.
"Lev, we need to talk...please."
A voice so soft it was little more than a whisper of sound came from her lips. It was obvious that whatever she wanted to talk about, it weighed heavily upon her mind. The Saiyan moved quietly over to the trees that he had felled and not picked up yet. A push of form and she would boost herself upwards onto the bile, her legs dangling over the side of them, as she braced her palms upon the wooden surface. She could still feel the energy coming from them, as every living entity had some sort of energy that would pool from it. Even though the trees were now dead, it would take a bit of time before the essence of their energy would slip away. Takeshii curled her tongue over her teeth, her breathing coming at a nervous pace right now as she tried to pull her thoughts together. After several moments, she was finally able to speak, and the words would come from her in an almost monotone nature from her body.
"Do you remember anything about that morning when it all happened Lev? Do you remember what you were thinking when you left and left me behind?"
Takeshii let her voice trail off, for the time being, her gaze shifting over the landscape that they now rested upon. The Saiyan lifted her feet up now, tucking them in upon the edge of the logs she sat on and resting her chin on the top of her knees. Her arms would lift to wrap around her long legs a softly whispered sigh drifting from her lips. She let the silence drift over them for several moments, just giving her time to compose herself so that she could continue. She did not want things to come out wrong, but she really needed to talk to him about everything that had happened, including when she had finally broken down a week before she had left to come to Earth in search of him. She knew it would be hard for him to understand, but the Saiyan hoped that by opening up to him, he would better be able to understand why she harbored so much rage inside. After several moments of quiet contemplation, she would finally begin to speak.
"I remember it all far too well Lev. We had spent months planning out this trip, a sort of way for us to explore and get away from your brother. However, there was more behind my reason for wanting to go on this trip Lev, far more. You see, you thought that my father was going to pair up your brother with one of my sisters...No. My father had every intention of pairing me up to be mated with your brother. My father knew I was the strongest of the family. He knew I carried more purity within me than any of my sisters could ever dream of carrying. So he had approached me, telling me that he would be announcing his plans within a fortnight. I knew I had to get away from there. I figured if I got away, just went exploring with you for a little while, that by the time we got back, my father would have changed his mind and picked one of my older sisters instead."
Takeshii would curl her tongue nervously over her lips then, struggling to fight back tears. It was too soon to bear to light such emotion as she had so much more to tell him. Her breath would come forward then, a shuddered whisper of sound that would creep from her lips, before being sucked back into the portal of her mouth. Several times she just breathed like that, using those few desperate moments to catch her breath. Finally, she was calmed enough that she could continue.
"I knew that I could not marry your brother Levlidian. I could not marry him because...because...I was in love with you." Kesh swallowed deeply as she finally admitted her feelings for him...or at least the feelings she had had at the time. "You, you were so naive. You could not even see it right in front of you. Which is why I could not bear to admit my feelings to you at the time. You were bound to be someone important, and I did not want to get in your way. So we laid out our plans, travel, explore, train a bit before returning home to show our families what we had learned. All just a silly excuse to hide from what was bound to happen in time. We had it all planned out, the maps were drawn up, where we would go every day. Do you remember Lev?"
Takeshii closed her eyes then as she let the memories wash over her. Now, she could not hold back the tears, though the silence of them was like a desperate scream from her body. The crystallized droplets streaking down her cheeks, only to drop down to the top of her knees where they would rest, an almost mocking notion to their placement, as she could clearly see them there.
"That morning I awoke and prepared myself, before making my way downstairs. My parents were sitting in the kitchen at the time, and I could just FEEL the sense of foreboding in the air, and it weighed so heavily upon me. Asked to join them, I did, listening to my father as he did the best he could to explain to me what had happened. I was in utter disbelief and refused to believe that you would ever do something like that. So I called my father a liar. I ran from the house and went to the cave...OUR CAVE. It was where we had planned to meet up and put all of our things together before we left. When I arrived there, I called for you...no answer. When I went in the cave...you were not there. It was bare, empty...other than the few remnants of prior nights that we had camped there before. You...were...gone."
She was shaking now, her entire being coiled like the ever ready serpent, ready to strike out at him should he approach her the wrong way in that moment. She knew she was not nearly as strong as him physically, but her current emotional state was powerful, and it could easily cause her to do something she may regret later. Her fingers curled in so tightly around her legs, that she could feel the bruising and painful crush on them, but she needed that to keep herself grounded.
"I refused to leave that cave Levlidian. I stayed there in the hopes that you would show up and that all of this was some horrible nightmare that I would eventually wake from. Days, weeks...I don't even remember exactly how long I stayed there waiting for you Lev. I didn't eat, barely slept. I became a hollow shell of myself. My father sent family out to find me, and they eventually did find me before they would drag me back home. For months I just walked around in this shell of my former self. My father could never understand why I took your betrayal so harshly. None of my family could understand. They could not see how deeply my feelings for you truly ran. Eventually, my sadness began to turn to rage, to hatred. I HATED you for what you had done. Moreso, I hated you for leaving me...for betraying my friendship."
The Saiyan would open her eyes now, turning those bloodshot orbs to gaze upon the man she had loved...the man she still did love. Admitting that to herself had been hard, but it had been something she had come to terms with over the past few weeks. It was why she was in such a hurry to get away from that house. Being there was just a constant reminder of what had been ripped from her grasp so long ago now. Even though it felt like only yesterday.
"I started to really focus on my training, to making myself a stronger, more competitive fighter. I no longer cared about love, or even finding you. I began to hope that someday I would receive word that you were found dead. I HATED YOU! But, I didn't. Not really. As time passed, I grew stronger. Not nearly as strong as you are now...but strong enough to hold my own. I competed in tournaments and competitions, the final one being one where I was pitted against my father. This was to be his final battle, but I think that was intention all along. He fought, I fought...channeling my hatred towards him for putting me in that situation in the first place, it was what I had drawn upon. I killed him Lev. I destroyed him for having put me in that situation where I was going to be forced to mate with your brother. When I realized what I had done, I fell to my knees. I let my screams of pain and agony envelope me...and even then only one word came from my lips....your name."
Takeshii would push herself up off of those logs then, twisting her form and strolling over to the edge of the circle they sort of had formed. Her back was to him now, her arms crossed beneath her breasts and across her belly. Her fingers wrapped around her arms now, and she was giving herself a bear hug of sorts, a way to comfort herself while she tried so desperately to explain things to him.
"Don't you see Lev? This is why I have to get away from you...from Durian. I...I..." She shook her head just a bit as she sobbed, and her form would slowly sink to her knees there on the ground. Palms coming up to rest over her weeping eyes as that strangled sound would come from her lips. "I am still in love with you Lev. I don't want to be. I don't want to feel like I feel...but I do. It is so UNFAIR! I won't hurt you, I won't hurt Durian. I can see that you love her and she loves you. She makes you happy...you need her. This is why I have to build this house. This is why I have to get away Lev." She let her words trail off then as she just knelt there...and sobbed.
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Post by Levlidian on May 6, 2017 17:30:19 GMT
It hit him so very hard, those words, still as she'd landed he could see into those obsidian eyes and the weight they carried; he wasn't prepared for this. Such words of emotional distraught and he, the youngest of two had caused them both, a hungering despair enveloped him as the beast listened. In the wake of the sweeping winds and tearing about his dark mane conforming it to the will of nature's most silent dictator. Keshii's frame bound itself in the emotions she portrayed so openly and it became so much more apparent to him just how similar they truly were, he'd felt that rendering agony more importantly, he understood. How could he, how could he have left her like that and the jaw known so well for it's words hung open in silence. There it was again, the ruin, the dismay and the outright agony of watching his best friend, his most loyal friend admit that it was all his fault as to why she was the way she was. The length of his fingers coiled into fists, cracks sounded in his knuckles as he closed his eyes against the waves of emotion this planet, this world unlocked, such mystical energies swarmed the very air and he'd known this for so very long. "I'm sorry," he choked and his lips twitched. "Kesh- I'm sorry. Let me explain," Thus from the pyramid of wood he'd created and further to her he'd stride; "Let me tell you the story-," he begged, "I had no choice-," A pause came and he'd bow his head to stare at the dirt from the confines of his spined mane; bangs hung low and shrouded those eyes, one of black the other glass.
"My Father, he detested me, he hated me and most of all he was jealous of Mother- when she obtained Super Saiyan she did so in the wake of surviving as a pregnant woman. I was in her womb, the rage and desperation pushed her into the brink and she rose a Golden Warrior," he'd adjust his jaw, never had he told this in it's entirety but he pushed on, "The animal began to use myself and Ca' as training dummies, hiding our dedication beneath his own selfish lust for true power, in his eyes we were just there to perfect him. The coward wouldn't challenge stronger Saiyan's till he was sure he could defeat them. The reason Ca' became so powerful was because he'd be subject to less of a social demeaning than was- I killed Mom," he laughed, cold and filled with loathing, "I killed a Super Saiyan so I might live- Father saw this as his ultimate challenge. To keep me tied down, beaten, rid of the emotional strength to surpass him. Yet still, I kept up didn't I? That day, when I activated the gene and fought Ca' for you, Father saw it, it was there I'd become distant wasn't it?" another pause as he drew breath taking a further boot forward to her, "He tore me down, tore me apart again and again. I grew so strong only because a Saiyan near death rises stronger than ever- when he heals. Those bruises I hid, the wounds and the rage I threw at people- it was all him,". His knuckles folded further and he'd swallow.
"Then there was you, the only one who saw me as that boy, that little idiot who scooted around after you and Ca'drual; Ca' treated me like dirt where as you would reach for me," ivory bore as he spoke, fighting his own emotions as his shoulder dipped, "Takeshii you saved me- Father amounted a large group of older Saiyan's. He attacked me with them and I had to fight, I lost it, I barely remember the combat but I remember the end to it all. The blood around me, the shattered remains and limbs discarded- it haunts me and that animal very much exists today. I suffer under it daily, if I don't fight it builds up unless-," Lev' exhaled, "-Unless Durian is near. I calm, I become the lad I was before Father had his hands around my neck. Choking me, beating me to a bloody pulp. When they came at me I fought for that plan of ours, I fought and I won but in doing so I sacrificed it by breaking that monsters neck. In freeing myself I locked my life from yours, it was selfish, it was wrong but it was our Saiyan way,". Now he was shaking, never had he felt this so strongly, stood in the presence of the woman he'd lost as a friend that day. "I came for you, I fought right to the door and killed- so many, One guard, he told me we'd be hunted for this and I stared at your home with that in mind. I stared and I made a choice- the wrong choice but I couldn't. I was weak, forgive me, please,". Lev's voice shook, it shook and he drew in a sharp intake of breath, "Please," he begged.
"When I left- life wasn't easy, I took jobs, became a monster in my own right and began reflecting everything Father taught me- Ca' was sent after me. When we finally met in combat the first time we beat each otehr within an inch of our lives- then a human found me," he'd draw in breath again, "She reminded me of you, she reminded me of you because she saw past my bravado and took me in; and she died because of me Kesh. That same day she died because my past crept up on me and slaughtered her. It refined my belief that despite how hardiy was, when i left I did the right thing. I wanted you to find me, I needed you Keshii. Forget as a partner, a friend, I needed my one true Saiyan. That heart, I needed it so badly but I'd thrown it away and I became so cold. If Lily, Hinawa, Tulip, Durian, Tomoyo- if they hadn't found me here. If so many others hadn't shown me what it was to be accepted I'd have turned into my Father," reaching within the satchel about his side, a leather bound and old creation he'd stored tools in before and from the depths he plucked a blue scouter. It was ruined, the only part that operated was the main hub and he offered it to her. "I fought Ca' a second time, both fights are recorded in here- I watch them over and over. I wish I'd been different, I wish it had been different but there are things you need to know about my final meeting with my brother Kesh- if you ever want to see me as I really am, watch them,".
That paw remained extended and he finally looked to her, striding closer he'd push that item into her chest and hands, the other folding around her and dragging the Siayaness into his embrace and he- cried. "I'm sorry- I didn't want to- I didn't, I had to, I've had to do so many things Takeshii," his fingers curled into her mane and waist as he held her and whimpered something into her ear. There he remained for a long moment. The only eye that functioned welled with tears mirroring hers and accepting everything she'd said. "I was so happy to see you- I know you need your own space and I accept that. I'm just so happy to have you back Keshii, I understand it all and you've become so much more than I ever dreamed," he'd tighten that grasp and then step from her offering the goofiest grin he could muster- tears trailed his single cheek from the one working eye and his ivory lay for show. "I came back for you, one way or another- I'm not angry anymore. I'm not upset or troubled, I found my way back and now you found me. We can start again- but only if that's what you want; we finally escaped on our adventure,"
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Post by Takeshii on May 9, 2017 6:46:34 GMT
Takeshii just knelt there, body racked in sobs of frustration, sadness, and most of all, that deep fear that her heart was going to be broken once again....that it was breaking once again. Her long dark mane of hair hung down over her face, hiding the tear stained cheeks from his sight. That was until he approached and wrapped his arms around her form, making her feel so incredibly small in that very moment. She remembered the many times that she had done the same thing to him throughout the years, the many times she had held him close when his brother picked on him, or when he got in trouble by his brute of a father for one thing or another. Levlidian had always been getting in trouble, always defiant...except with her. With her, it had always been different. Lev had looked up to her in so many ways and doted on her with every action.
Takeshii just listened to him as he spoke of his past, of times even before they really started being the friends they had become. He spoke of the times when he was within his own mother's womb, how even then his father had been jealous because his mother was able to obtain Super Saiyan with a child within her womb. His words then began to fall upon her ears, the way he explained exactly what had happened, why he had done what he had done. Why he had left her behind, had needed to leave her behind. Learning that his father had sent all those people to attack his own son, it broke her heart. She had always felt like Lev's father was jealous of him, angry at the way Levlidian acted half the time, and even more so, angry at the way the Levlidian just did not seem to care. It was not Lev's fault, not really. Levlidian was just a kid that did not really seem to understand that his father sought to become something, and was willing to use his own children to do so...even if it meant sacrificing their lives in the process.
A bitterness seemed to settle within the very depths of Takeshii's gut. A cold hatred towards the man that had done this to his very own son. Her arms wrapped even tighter around herself then, trying to help herself get through the story so that she could better understand what had happened. When it got to the part where he had come back for her, how he had fought his way up to that door of her home, only to turn and walk away because of something one of their families guards had said...this killed her. To know he had been so close, so incredibly close...and then left her once again, this tore at her heart. She turned towards him then, storming over the where he stood. The Saiyan lifted her palms, hands coiled into fists as she began to beat on his chest in frustration, finally letting her words come.
"So it was not just once that you walked away from me Levlidian, but twice. You left me behind TWICE. I was the only person that understood you, that loved you and all of your faults. I was the only person that taught you, that supported you, even when you were angry at me for one thing or another. I protected you so many times Levlidian. I cared for you in ways that your family never did...and you left me behind. Now you are sorry. Now that you have moved on with your life, made something for yourself. Now that you have a home, a mate, friends...now you are sorry? Do you know how badly I want to hate you right now Levlidian. How badly I just want to turn and walk away from you like you did from me?"
Her body was shaking uncontrollably, and she finally stilled from beating on his chest with those fists. She turned from him again, turning away from him so that she could catch her breath, her heart breaking over and over again. However, she knew she needed this. She knew that she needed to get everything out on the table so that they could both understand what had happened, and how they felt. The Saiyan heard him approach, felt him push that scouter against her chest and felt his arms as they went around her. Takeshii curled up against him, wrapping her arms around his waist and clinging onto the strength of his form with that desperate need of someone that felt like she was losing it all like she had lost it all and there was nothing she could do to get it back.
She was slowly starting to regain her composure when he whispered those words against her ear. A knot formed in the very depth of her gut, and had he not been holding her so tightly within the grasp of his arms, she would have collapsed back to the ground once again. Soundless tears began to fall once again. Tears that would drop down onto his chest and coat his form from the seemingly endless supply. All the pain and frustration she had been feeling, had finally found its freedom, and she did not even bother to try to stop it. There was no point really. Levlidian needed to understand how badly he had hurt her. However, those whispered words...they were killing her all over again. How? How could he say things like that to her, knowing how she felt about him? How could he put her in such a desperate situation, forcing her to stay at his side and just watch him move on with his life? Yet, would she ever truly be able to walk away from him...especially when she felt the same way he did?
Takeshii stood back from him then, her tongue coiling over her lips, tasting the salty tears that had fell from her eyes. She took a deep breath, hugging that scouter against her form as if it was the last piece of the puzzle....and in many ways it was. She rolled her bottom lip between her lip, feeling so incredibly small and insignificant at that moment. Her gaze just locked on his, and for the first time, she allowed him to see into the very depths of the soul that he had stained in anger. She let him see how she had used her sadness, rage, and anger towards him to become stronger. How she had used that rage to destroy her own father, even though it had been her father's wish so that she could prove herself to the others. Her father had always wanted her to be stronger, had always strived to help her to become the perfect Saiyan. Her father was the exact opposite of Levlidian's. He was a kind and caring man, a man that knew honor and loved his children. He supported them to the point of his death...a death that had come at her own hands. She swallowed deeply then, and would finally allow herself to speak, though her words came in that same strangled tone as before.
"Lev, you did not come for me...I came for you. I always come for you. Even when I want to be angry at you, even when I want to hate you for everything you did to me...I can't. My heart won't let me. You are as much a part of me as my very own soul, and even if I walked away, even if I found someone to fill that void in my heart...you would always be there. I suppose that is part of what scares me to death. I will never be able to let you go. I hate you for that Levlidian. I love you, but gods I hate you."
The Saiyan would turn away then, taking a deep breath as she tried to compose herself, and she would have a sort of wry smile on her features. She would tuck the scouter away for now, rolling her shoulders and moving over to where those piles of wood are that he had put together for her house. Her palms came to rest upon them, fingers coiling around them and feeling the living essence from those logs as it slowly died away. She knew their pain, she knew how they felt...for in that moment another part of her died, to make way for a new part. Things would not be the same, at least not for now. She had to move on one way or another and let Levlidian live his life. She made the choice then and there, that she would not do so as an enemy, as someone who had wanted to kill him. No, she would do so as his friend...as his best friend. She would give a brief nod, before turning to look back over her shoulder at him, giving him a cheeky little grin.
"Let the adventure begin, eh Lev? Come on, we have a house to build and it is not going to build itself on tears and possibilities."
WIth that, she would lift up one of the bundles of trees, and take to the sky, not bothering to wait for him to join her. She flew back off in the direction of where they were building her home. It was not far from Levlidian's home but still held enough distance to give her her own space...and that was what she needed. As she was flying, she went over in her mind everything that had been said, and those whispered words would come to her head once again. They alone caused that smile to creep over her features. They alone pushed away from the negative thoughts, and it would be those whispered words that would keep her going, even when she felt like everything was falling apart. He would never truly know how much those words meant to her...even though, deep down inside, the knowledge of them killed her because she knew...she knew that she could never have him, at least not while his heart was held by another. She hurt, but at the same time...she loved him enough to be happy for him...and she was.
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Post by Grail Brisk on May 13, 2017 23:41:31 GMT
[This thread has long moved on where Mithanil is involved. I'll take Zeni when this is turned in please.]
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Post by Levlidian on May 15, 2017 12:24:11 GMT
Levlidian watched on as she'd venture away from him, Takeshii had begun to accept everything wasn't quite a simple as it had first seemed when they'd met for the first time in so long- she'd been so angry with the Saiyan male and there she was soaring away with some edifice of a smile. However, Levlidian could only adverse on his heel and frown into the shadows of the suns gaze, that smile wouldn't go on forever, she was going to be forced to relive the worst moment of his life and how the beast knew it; how it wracked him with guilt but it had to be done. She deserved to know the truth of his own past so that she too could move on with him, come to accept what he was still struggling to accept, this man here stood upon the dirt had been responsible for each and every death of his entire family thus his knuckles bound into the severity of cracks about his fingers. "Damnit," he whispered as that hunger crawled it's way to the surface again and he sighed. This was how it was going to be for all of eternity wasn't it, the boy struggling with his own emotions was still very much alive within the depths of his charismatic self. How he hated that fact, that he wasn't going to be able to even conceive of relaxation in it's entirety and enjoy the life he was trying to craft.
A slow regard came back for the speck that was now Takeshii, she'd flown quite the way now with those bastions of lumber strapped avidly to her spine. He sighed, and peered to the dirt and a longing to follow lay in his eyes but then why would his boots not adhere to that simple desire. Still he stood in the sweep of the breeze and then eyed the logs he too would be charged with carrying, the distance seemed so far to him, was it laziness? Perhaps but thoughts soon had him act and stride to capture the items about his frame. Strapping what he could down and hefting the remains up, on came the trot which broke into a jog until he'd squat with the weight and launch himself skywards. <You'll always be your own undoing> scowled his Father within the mind of his son. "Shut up," he hissed looking up at her. <She's going to marry your brother, murderer, you're far beneath what we need of an heir>. She'd wave and again he'd feel that tug in his chest from such poisonous words- he was right. Even now his very existence had been like poison to the Saiyaness, so alone and wandering seeking the friend who'd promised her so much. <She'll never look at you the way you do, silly boy,> an adjusted jaw came with a crack "Shut up," he whispered to himself clearly his mind was else where. Still above the sea of green they soared, his boots descending to run a long the tops of the trees, a playful jest he used to try to covert the pain in his chest- to Takeshii came his joyful grin, as equal a lie if not at this moment.
It took them a while but soon he'd land aside her by where they'd agreed she should set up, down his head descended and to his knees came the beast, untying the wood and helping the Siayaness with hers. It was a truelly enjoyable endeavour for the pair, tossing the hammer down from her two story home only for her to catch it and fire him some nonsense about being careful. With a waver of his hand Levlidian merely laughed reassuring her with egotistical banter. This was how it should have been from the start, he thought as she in turn launched a tree his way- panicking the young Saiyan had toppled from his ladder and int the lake met with a maddened laugh from his accomplice. Rising from the depths he'd draw eyeing Takeshii with a furrowed brow till he was hovering above the very line fo the waters ridge. Arms folded and jaw jutted in annoyance. The hours waltzed by and they'd work well into the darkness, eventually setting blazes about the sight just so they could see, a startled yelp drew from her friend as Lev', again, nailed his own thumb and quickly pressed the flesh into his mouth whining about it; this was what he wanted- friends he could enjoy such times with.
Back drifted the bastions mind to the time he'd build a Ship, two randomised Saiyan's one relatively intelligent in the form of Callion and one of exceptional intelligence known as Capper. Their shared words and aid in developing the spherical creation that was now his space ship- he'd enjoyed them more than any fight. The way Callion had spoken to him was unlike any other Saiyan had till now, calm, collected and he genuinely just wanted to know about his fellow Saiyan's thoughts. They were enjoyable times, more so enjoyable than Lev' had known up until that point. Though now was more so than that, he'd gained is friend back, aside him she sat with a mocking glare as he spoke nonsensically about the time he'd met Tomoyo in the arena. A laugh sounded when he mentioned the crotch shots, the way Levlidian and whaled on him was described with the usual bravado- till he elaborated he'd thrown himself out the ring. pausing, he vocalised how Tomo' had reminded him of his own boyhood, so naive and full of passion. Still they had a home to build and inside they were this time. Fitting the copper wires he'd brought into the very wood of the walls. Whilst he'd managed to build her a generator prior, it was still a nice change- for Takeshii was equally good with mechanics as he was thus between them he soon flipped that switch and on came the lighting to her home and for equal measure- other electronics. promising Keshii he'd take her out for what else she needed, Levlidian found himself laughing at the peculiar look she granted him as he explained what was needed to be gained.
Still their day came to an end, reluctantly tit had turned into conversation on the floor of her living room, what he'd bult here with the help of his Saiyaness friend was magnificent, it had helped she'd been pretty damn pushy as to what she desired but the time it took had been extravagantly drawn out. Still before her fireplace they'd say eating what ever they'd brought in that picnic basket. Again and again they mocked, struck and generally acted almost as siblings. The young woman had dozed off within no time, red about her cheeks and several ale bottles littered before them aside empty plates. Levlidian himself had begun to grow tired. Slumber wasn't far off, perhaps he'd rest here and return in the morning for training and to see Durian. peering to the peaceful figure about the floor he''d soon boast a small smile- at least they were together again and as she'd stated before as he'd edge the bottle- to which she'd grasp and growl at his attempt. "Such a Saiyan-," he'd laugh and slowly drift upon his back to take up sleep himself, "-you were right though Keshii, time for an adventure," and into the realms of the dreams he fell- locked once again within a realm not an ounce of his self loathing could touch.
((Ending it there, got permission from Kesh to use her character to do so PL PLEASE)) 10719 words Total: Social Bonus?
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Post by Takeshii on May 15, 2017 19:24:47 GMT
TOTAL WORD COUNT: 10219 Words. Would like PL With 75% Heavy Weights bonus, and 10% House Bonus.
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Post by Capper Hofferson on May 18, 2017 23:23:36 GMT
Takeshii | Levlidian | Grail Brisk | WC: 10,211 PL GAINS: 19,656 OLD PL: 19,993 NEW PL: 39,649 | WC: 10,719 PL GAINS: 12,058 OLD PL: 263,849 NEW PL: 275,907 | WC: 1,984 ZENI GAINS: 1,934 OLD ZENI: 3,788 NEW ZENI: 5,722 |
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