Post by Natto on Jul 9, 2015 15:09:52 GMT
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[Heavy Weights on: PL 1/4 -> 8.368]
Word Count: 2113
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Oozaru Mastery >>>>>>>>> Pending Approval
[Heavy Weights on: PL 1/4 -> 8.368]
After his encounter with the namekian named Xylo, Natto had one thing stuck within his mind. The namekians way. They were peace keeping and serene folk, that would rather meditate than to train their bodies. Even though Natto found the whole concept of meditating to be boring, he couldn’t despise it, since he could recognize the importance of mind training. ”Maybe they are like Xylo when they are younger… And through meditation they come to control their emotions better… Getting a grip on their selves… Being in full control… I don’t agree completely on such a tight grip over one’s emotion, since they are a powerful tool to be used… I can drive us to overcome our own weaknesses, like a did with my tail… Had I not been angry, I would not have the guts to accomplish that training session… Yeah… Most likely I would’ve given up after the first drill…” however, the issue was quite mind-boggling, since he saw that it was somehow useful to. Suddenly, a glimpse of thought came to his mind, and he widened his eyes and arched his eyebrows, impressed with what he realized.
”Being like a namekian is a mistake and it is foolish… Without my inner rage, I’ll become a weakling and forfeit my training and my warrior state of mind… I will lose my alertness and readiness… But… if I can manage to take a grip of myself, and direct my inner most fury… I might be able to grasp control over my Great Ape self!” that was a quite shocking conclusion. His mind immediately traveled back in time, to his time in Felucia.
Natto remembered the day of the festival. His foster brother, Sukogoro wouldn’t stop talking about the great yellow moon that would take over the skies, to which his foster father, Sugoro, wouldn’t only laugh, happy with the kid’s excitement. The young saiyan was torn between excitement and some unexplainable feel of unease, but as everybody seemed happy about that, he decided not to bitter their happiness with this weird concern of his. He thought it wasn’t nothing and he couldn’t be more wrong. He had been living peacefully with the felucians for too long that he started forgetting about his heritage. And that recklessness would cost him greatly.
As they went outside to celebrate the first full moon in over 20 years, the 10 year old saiyan stared at it in awe. He had a couple seconds of muse and some sort of nostalgia as he stared at that, before his tail started twitching involuntarily. As the first few seconds he didn’t notice anything, but soon enough he felt a really warm feeling chaining from his tail, that would quickly take over his whole body. He didn’t notice, but his eyes became red, and his heart was pounding so hard inside his chest, that it almost felt like it was going to jump right through his ribs and skin. Suddenly an immense rage started to take over his body and his sight became pure bloody red and he began to roar louder and louder as everything around him seemed smaller. He couldn’t understand what was happening, and his consciousness was fading away rather quickly, as if he was falling asleep.
Being dragged into that memory, Natto has laying down on his bed, eyes closed, focusing on the moment so deeply that he forgot about everything around him, on the real world. He was now inside his own mind and heart, in a pitch black place, full of burning flames all around the place. He was naked, from tops to bottom, but it didn’t bother him, he was focused on what was there with him. In front of him there was a Great Ape. A quite familiar one. He were his battle suit from when he was a child, with the armored boots, the tight spandex shorts and the black wristbands. The moment they stared at each other, the Great Ape roared in a rampaging fury, dashing forward to punch Natto, in the face.
The saiyan wanted to avoid that punch, and he was fast enough to do so, but he couldn’t. He felt the pain of that punch not on his face, but on his inner body, like a knife to the heart, that made him also sad and disappointed on himself. When he felt to the floor, he saw a pair of glowing shackles holding his feet. By the look of them they seemed to be made of some sort of pure fury concentrated ki. They came all the way from the Great Ape’s own chest, like it was linked with its heart. ”I have to get rid of this!” he thought to himself. But before he could do anything, the Ape jumped, trying to step on top of Natto. The young saiyan swiftly rolled back to his feet and held the foot that tried to squash him above his head. It was easy at first, because he was much stronger than his child Great Ape version, but as soon as he did that, neew glowing shackles appeared on his hands, pulling them down, making things hard. Natto’s brows furrowed and he gritted his teeth, trying as hard as he could. No swear came down his temples, as it was a battle inside his own mind.
”Goddammit! I will not be able to hold it up like this! I need more strength!” he muttered, as he tried his hardest to keep it up with the squashing foot, but was slowly being pushed down. The first knee touched the ground, quickly followed by the second, and his legs started spreading, as he was getting pushed by the foot and pulled by the shackles. – ARRRRGHHH!!! – he screamed in an angry frustration which only made things a way worse . He was about to be torn apart and smashed, when a glimpse of thought came to his mind, leaving him speechless.
”This is my rage! My hearts fury is dominating me and I’m being that much of an idiot as to try to fight with more anger! I’m a fool! I need to clean my heart; I need to put a grip onto my own rage to direct it toward my real targets. I need to be able to see clearly using my anger as a fuel, not as a driving wheel of a runway car! If I don’t, then it’s no use to waste my time here!” the sudden realization made the chains slightly thinner and they lost part of its strength, allowing Natto to put one foot back to the ground, but it was still not enough. ”Come on, already! Get off me!” he was still too anxious to be able to control his inner self, to the point of it cloud his mind. He struggled for a couple more minutes, before he came to remember Xylo’s words. ”Serenity! That’s it… I’m lacking serenity. There’s no use on just getting rid of the anger… If I remain anxious and impatient I will never be able to control the transformation!” he had to breathe deeply, as he tried to calm his own hard. It wasn’t easy due to the fact of being inside his own hard.
Natto was gentler and kinder than the average saiyan indeed, but he was still a full-fledged saiyan warrior, filled with anger and anxiety. His impulses dominated a great part of his being, and to fight against that was like going against the own forces of nature. ”We can’t fully control anything, but we can direct it toward a more useful use… My rage is important to my being, but it can be channeled… My anxiety can become alertness… I just have to get a grip upon myself and find the wheel of my own emotions!” it was easier said than done, and he had to think about tons of stuff. The Felucia memory was a sad one, but he started using it to motivate himself. Had he had discipline and control over himself, nothing like that would’ve happened. ”I will form more bonds… And I will need to be able to protect those bonds from being severed by anything! Including myself!” his motivation made the shackles on his arms to shatter, making him able to stand up again, holding the Great Ape’s foot above his head. ”When going to war, if I rampage due to fear or anxiety, I may hurt my allies on some friendly-fire! That could mean an utter defeat on a battle and could be responsible for turning the tide of an all-out war! Every battle counts and every soldier has a responsibility toward the army, and especially toward the whole empire and its race!” his thoughts of self-discipline made the shackles on his feet to break and he could finally gather enough strength to push the Great Ape’s foot upward, making it lose his balance.
Immediately, Natto fired his ghostly-white aura, that immediately gathered the flames all around the place, that gravitated toward him, turning his aura in some bloody-red fire like aura, making him feel suddenly an immense strength. It wasn’t his normal ki strength that he felt, but something deeper, like he was filled with his own deepest emotions, channeled like a pure energy that would allow him to take full control of himself.
As he flew high up, the Great Ape recovered and stared at him, roaring like an uncontrollable beast that it was. Natto smirked, as he saw it as it truly was: a desperate uncontrolled child, driving by fear and fury. The Ape punched him, to which he easily dodged with a barrel roll all around its arm. He clenched his fist as he drew near it, concentrating his entire aura in some sort of flame-like energy all onto his right fist.
– I understand your pain and fear! I understand how easily it can become such a fury! But we can never let go of our reasoning again! By doing that we endanger everyone that we hold dear to us! I will never allow myself to lose control again! Being stronger isn’t only about physical training! Without a strong mind… - Natto dodged another punch, by swiftly rolling over the fist in the air with skill. – Without a strong mind we are nothing but foolish rampaging beasts! And saiyans are the greater race of the universe! We are not dumb infuriated monkeys! I know a child is sometimes uncontrollable… it’s everything so new and unprecedented that losing grip is like just another Monday! But I’m not a child anymore and I can’t allow my rage to take full control of my mind ever again! I’ll make you behave, Great Ape! Because I can! I’m an elite warrior of the strongest race on the entire universe! I’m Natto, the son of Douchi! Proud soldier of the Saiyan Solar Empire!! – he shouted, smiling with pride as the Ape seemed, somehow, startled by his word. Seizing that opening, he threw an incredible strong punch onto the Great Ape’s face, making it fly away like a rocket.
Following that, the Ape fell to the ground, and slowly started reverting back to his former child self. The scene flashed and they were there, standing in front of each other, sit on a somehow brighter place without those flames. They could hear the sound of a waterfall from the distance, and the child smiled with a happy and relieved expression. – Thank you… I think I have no regrets anymore… - he said, chuckling amidst his large smile. The older self leaned forward, with a small smile on his face and touched the kid’s head, making a brief cuddle. – I know… We are growing quite a lot, are we not? – he asked, to which the child responded with an animated nod and both chuckled again. The child suddenly got up and bowed. – I have to go now! But we will always be together… The thing is, right now, we need you to be stronger in both body and spirits! – he said. – Don’t worry! I will. It’s a promise… A precious promise from me to myself! – he answered, getting up. Both of them touched their fists in a sign of commitment and the child slowly faded away from his sight.
Natto opened his eyes and he was all wet in sweat breathing heavily, but his mind was at peace and he smiled. Confident that now he had taken control upon his inner most rage. He was a fully mature saiyan warrior now, a worthy member of the super elite of the empire.
Word Count: 2113
Trying to learn:
Oozaru Mastery >>>>>>>>> Pending Approval